Honoring Mr. King’s Dream.

 

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A few weeks ago we celebrated Martin Luther King day. I wanted it to be more than a “day-off” for my almost eight year old. So after he read me a book about Mr. Kings’ life (through the eyes of a second grader), I showed him a civil rights video on youtube, and then read him the entire  “I Have a Dream”speech. 

So often we hear the quoted”I have a dream that one day my little children…” these lines and those that precede them, have been the anthem for many disgruntled looters,  vigilante college students, for marches, and demonstrations, but so often disregarded is Mr. Kings poignant plea to his own people…

“But there is something that I must say to my people, who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice: In the process of gaining our rightful place, we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred. We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again, we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.”

His words, were written for us, all of us not merely the  “us’s” with the darker skin, but any other “us” the “us’s” who have been mistreated, the “us’s” who have found out way too early that life is sometimes so much more than just unfair, and he gives the “us’s” a message. The message is not for the others to smooth the ruffles of fear that undoubtedly accompanied his speech, but to tell”us”; his people,in no muddied terms, that: THIS IS HOW WE WIN!

We win by making right choices, even when making wrong ones are justified. We win, when we let go of bitterness and hate, if for no other reason than that, those attitudes perpetuate an idea, that we have no control, that we are damaged, and trust me, there is no greater damage you can do to yourself than to be bitter.

Mr. King never once said to give up, but rather to conduct ourselves with dignity and discipline, this was never a cry of surrender, but rather a battle cry to press forward with grace, because what so many forget is that VIOLENCE NEVER EVER CHANGES THE WORLD FOR THE BETTER. It takes strong, brilliant, determined people to rise in the face of adversity. To say “we can do and be better than you expect”,To be kind and tolerant to the people that think we are inferior and treat us as “less than”. That plight never seems to end. Although black and white issues have greatly improved, there is always unfairness, we seem to not be able to learn the great lessons of past history, but rather the pendulum swings and the “offended” becomes the “offender” over and over again. Why can we not say say,”My life is full of promise I can be the best me, I have support in my endeavors, I am grateful!”?  Why do so many not focus on their own potential, but instead nurse wounds that do not heal?

This, I think,is what Martin Luther King Junior and all of the other heroes’ were fighting for, A chance to improve not only improve their lives but their world!  The point is the people Mr King was addressing fought, not with weapons and looting, not by trash talking, but by refusing with dogged determination, to BE less.

So this post is for the “US’s” out there, who refuse to be knocked down, belittled, or oppressed.  Those who refuse to perpetuate negative stereo-types, those intent on breaking legacies of living hard. This is for the “Us’s” who still say “no” to things that aren’t positive even if everyone around us is saying “yes”. Mr King’s speech should inspire all of us,to consider bitterness and hate our enemy, to recognize that to get anywhere in life it takes dignity, hard work and a strong determined soul.

So next time the holiday comes around, don’t just glance over that part of his speech, the urgency of what he says is still relevant today. His dream of equality and peace still has a long way to go. No more of his dream will be accomplished by laws that impose rules that take away from some and give to others. It’s up to us to bridge the gaps. We must replace rudeness with grace, fear with knowledge, and hatred with kindness, in all areas of our lives. This is how others are able to truly see the content of our character! This is how Mr. King’s dream is realized. THIS IS HOW WE WIN!

 

 

This is why I write

neglect2I recently attended a class where the speaker was someone in recovery, someone who had a hard life, and as a result treated her children harshly. Perhaps if she had started out with a better statement I would have had more empathy. Her opening words were. “My mother was an alcoholic, so of course I abused my kids, I NEVER HAD A CHANCE!”

Those few words have prompted me to start writing. I don’t believe that children of abuse and neglect “never have a chance”. I don’t believe in using ones upbringing as an excuse for failure. I believe every single person has a chance to have a  beautiful life, healthy relationships, success at work and at home. It takes work, in fact, much more work than it does for others but it can be done.

You make think I’m naive, That I don’t know what people go through or that I have no compassion. If that’s the case, let me assure you, You are wrong!I am an adult survivor of the foster system, I experienced unspeakable abuse and neglect at the hands of my mother, and worse at her boyfriends, when I was 8 years old I ran away to the police station and begged them to put me in foster care, They didn’t at first, instead they took me home where my mother put on a show for the caseworker and as soon as she left, pulled out pliers and threatened to pull my tongue out with them if I ever brought “pigs” to her house again. My mother was well versed in the art of cruelty, making me address her as your majesty, and she called me “slave-girl”. She pinned dirty underwear to my clothes and made me wear them to school.
The best I could hope for in my house was to be forgotten, and I hid under piles of laundry so she couldn’t find me and beat me. So at 8 I ran away and the second time, after the police took an inventory of my welts and bruises, I went to a foster-home. It was the 80’s a time when they didn’t want families to get attached so I moved 18 times in 9 years. I did not have a family. I did not have a lasting role model, some homes were not bad, others…..
In some homes people called me, the “N” word- Their own adult children were like the evil step-sisters, and I lived there to be unpaid help, In others I opened my package of socks, while the bio children opened rooms full of presents on Christmas day. Still  in others, they made prophecies about how by the age of 15 I’d have three kid’s and be on welfare. (Even though there was NO basis for the comment) My mother mercifully went to prison for selling drugs and then my brother who was a toddler, joined me for a few years on my journey.

I was never adopted, at age 18 I aged out I was able to finish school, and then I was quite literally on my own. My social worker gave enrolled my on food stamps, and my friend’s mother paid for my first months share of an apartment. And that was that.

20 years later I just celebrated being married to the best (normal) guy ever for 10 years. We have a lovely life with a charming and brilliant son, a comfortable home and no-evidence of the past I left behind.

This blog is for the FORGOTTEN Children, Those who have such a road to travel that thankfully others will never know. This blog is those who dare to hope that life can get better, for those who crave a “normal” life. It’s for those who want success at home, and in the wide wide world. My personal belief is that our lives have purpose. I think the reason I experienced the things I did in my childhood, is so that I can really help others, be it through adoption (we can’t have any more biological children), or through this blog. This blog will, I hope, be a little bit of the “mother” we didn’t have. I’ll share with you everything I know about how to succeed at life, I promise to be open, and speak with compassion, I promise to be honest with you even if it hurt’s. You will find on this blog, how to keep a house, how to dress in a way to command respect, land a job, attract the right kind of mate, I’ll share with you (though I’m still learning) who to budget, and the importance of setting goals. I want you to know, you don’t have to be a statistic, you can be happy, and have a great life! Whether you are 80 or 18, I want you to know, YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN!